It's been awhile

It's been awhile. I just can't keep up with life. I feel like I am swimming with no shore in sight. I have been so down lately and really can't put my finger on why. I have been losing weight, taking vitamins, getting along a little better with SG......I don't know why. I feel like I never really see or spend anytime with him though and I know that is part of it. He has been gone the last 2 weekends. The first for 4 days and then last weekend just to play golf for the day...but it was the whole day and then he slept half the day the next day. I'm so tired of just existing. Then I found out he'll be gone almost the entire last 2 weeks of May. I just can't be exicited and can't even begin to act happy about it. Not only do I miss him and hate being here alone, but I just can't stop my mind from wandering about what he does when he's gone. I would love to be able to truthfully be able to tell him I hope he has a good time. Maybe one day that will be the case.

On a brighter note, only 3 weeks of school left....thank goodness. I'm so over school right now. I'm looking forward to hanging out at the beach and such with the kids. I guess alot of it will depend on how Jillian feels about hanging out there though. :)

I have an interview tomorrow with First Foto. I am actually pretty excited about it as I think it would be fun to do.